Been googling these past few days if the end of chemo is different. It’s just been so much less rough this post round than any before. Searching for end of chemo, I knew better even looking at that, cause even someone who maybe on the same drugs as me will have a very different experience. From the start I know Ive had it good with not throwing up or being nausea at all, many people are not that lucky. Even to me, 6 rounds of chemo seems like a lot, but in the big picture of the cancer world, 6 is is not a lot at all. As long as I stay in bed I feel okay. I nap very suddenly this post round, usually just for an hour or so. My head feels very heavy when I have to go the bathroom, and I move very slow doing a simple task like that. So in bed I stay even though there is a list piling up in my head of things I need to do. It’s still hard for me to grasp, even believe what is happening to me. Chemo drugs are toxic drugs that are running through my veins. They don’t just go after where the tumor was, they attacking my whole body. Even typing those words, a little part me of me still really doesn’t get it. Maybe it’s my stubbornness of someone who is healthy otherwise, to not to believe I really feel bad. Or it just makes no sense how medicine is what us making me feel so bad. You’d think I’d get that at almost the end of my chemo time, but no, I sit here wondering why it’s taking me so long to recover. In my searching I came across this sweet little video about chemo, which one would watch shortly after being diagnosed but its a good reminder now to me (I like how she says destroys with such power at the beginning)

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Alisa – Just wanted to say I’m praying for you today – and this week as you reach the end of chemo. Lots of love being sent your way. Hugs – connie

July 2, 2013 11:35 am

me too……..ditto

love from gram

July 2, 2013 10:17 pm

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